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So I re-read my post from Friday and realized that since I haven't posted everything that's happened with the landscaper's mom from the time I met her up until now, that her asking me to befriend her son doesn't really seem like that big of a deal.  And normally, I'd agree.  But if you knew the whole back story from beginning to end, you might understand a little more why I have no interest in becoming friends with her son.  I've found her to be an overbearing woman and I really have no need for her drama in my life.  I don't care for her and try to avoid her but I almost feel like she follows me around like a puppy when I go in to volunteer and tries to engage me in coversation about her son.

I'm very negative by nature and I don't like that about myself.  I'm trying to change that and make this a positive place to visit.  That's why I participate in Half Full Friday's, to remind myself that not everything in my life is bad.  I have to write down the good things as they happen, otherwise when Friday rolls around, I struggle to think of a single thing that made me happy during the week.  Anyways, in an effort to keep this a positive place, I've decided I'm just not going to talk about the landscaper or his mom anymore, unless something really major happens.   

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Last week was a little depressing anyways just because I lost my job one year ago this past Wednesday.  My birthday's are usually just like any other day so last year I decided I wanted to make it memorable.  I tried to skydive the weekend before as a present to myself because it's something I've always wanted to do.  I got up in the plane but the sky was too cloudy and the plane couldn't get up high enough through the clouds to be able to jump.  Then on my birthday, I didn't feel well and had to attend a mandatory day long meeting for work.  And then the next day, I got fired.  So it was sure memorable alright, just not in the way I would've wanted.  A year has passed and I'm not any closer to finding a job. 

I do feel better about my future than I did a year ago, at least.  I got a really good pell grant that essentially makes my education free for the semester (I'll have to pay for books and things still) and I feel like that's too good to turn down.  I still have people trying to decide for me what I should go to school for but it's my life, my decision.  My father doesn't seem very supportive of my decision to go back to school but again - my life, my decision!  My unemployment ends at the end of November so I still have December to worry about.  I feel like all signs are pointing towards going to school so I'm just going to have faith that God will get me through December somehow and then I'll start school in January.  And hopefully the economy will be better if four years so I'll be able to find a better job.

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I attended a day long conference on Saturday for the other volunteer project I work on.  It was going well until near the end when I was told that people didn't connect to the ceremony I put together for the last project.  I felt really bad because I worked long and hard on it.  It also made me wonder why they asked me to come back and do it again next year in the same capacity.