Monday, June 16, 2014

Mundane Monday

Thankfully, this past week was considerably better than the week before.  Even so, I still spent far too much of it feeling sorry for myself.  Part of it was due to not having any luck with jobs.  After I got fired, I couldn't find a job to save my life.  I applied for job after job after job with very little response, and had some horrific interviews.  Each letter/email/phone call I received saying I didn't get the job felt like a major rejection.  Why wasn't I good enough?  What was wrong with me that I couldn't even get shitty jobs that I didn't really want, but desperately needed?  School opened up a whole new world for me, and I was finally happy.  I felt like I'd found myself and that I was right where I needed to be.

School is out for the summer, and I wasn't lucky enough this time to be picked to work at my current job.  I figure I'm already looking for summer work, so I'll just look for something to replace my current job.  I have absolutely no respect for my boss, or my coworkers, so it seemed like a win-win situation to find something to carry me through the summer and through the next year of school. 

Only now I feel like I'm right back where I was before I started school.  I feel like I'm getting rejection letters left and right, and all those feelings keep rushing back when I least expect it.  I especially worry that I won't find a good job after graduation, and be stuck with a mounting student loan bill that I can't afford to pay.  Did I really make the right choice in going back to school?  My heart tells me yes, but only time will tell.  

Someone also gave me a lecture that I wasn't interested in hearing.  When I told said person that I didn't want his advice, he still kept going on and on.  I shouldn't have to justify my life choices to anyone, and yet, I do...  

Another thing I was bummed out about was that only two bloggers have signed up for my annual Christmas in July dog swap.  That's the worst turnout I've ever had.  But then I realized that at least two bloggers joined in, which is better than none at all.  And hopefully those two will be very happy with their swaps.  That's all that really matters - that everyone who takes part is happy and had fun doing it.  

Some other stuff happened too, but I don't want to bore everyone with my problems.  It's in the past, and that's exactly where it should stay!  

5 showed me some love:

Molly The Wally said...

We have our fingers crossed that something comes your way. We so hope good luck lands at your door. Sorry it was only two but we would join in too if there was someone in the UK. Postage this end stinks. Have a marvellous Monday.
Best wishes Molly

Kathy G said...

It's hard to realize when you're in the middle of it, but oftentimes something wonderful will come out of the bad.

Jenny Woolf said...

I think if your heart says you did the right thing going to school, then it was - there's got to be some advantage in feeling good about what you are doing and actually you're more likely to get a job you like if you feel positive. I am convinced it has a snowball effect. I hope the rest of the week shows a good improvement for you!

Sagira said...

I'm glad this week was better than the last week. It is their loss for missing out on a great employee. Just have to remind ourselves that things happen for a reason. Sorry we didn't join in. We are dealing with some medical issues and couldn't do it this year.

Mommy Lisa said...

Have you met with anyone in career counseling at your college of choice? I found it was extremely helpful when I was laid off three years ago. I hope it gets even better.

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